WONDERING…THINKING…LOVING…
Dividing my time between writing (as a job), thinking about him, texting bros to check them up, thinking of him, lunch with Jen, thinking of him, and writing.
My mind is divided, it’s lost among the worries, fears and love. My heart is nowhere near me. It’s in AZ. I try not to cry, I try not to think. Things are gonna be fine. He’s going to be fine. The birthday will be fine.
What’s next for me. If not with him then it’s me alone, alone, alone and sad.
Hate the distance but I love God. There’s a reason. We both know that. Are we unfortunate? But love is a wonderful gift. So I think not. Distance is just distance. But love is love.
Gotta go home now. Gotta think of him. Even if I don’t, my heart and my mind will always do.
Love you. I know you know. GOOD. =]
