Sadness…
My thoughts have been unsettled for quite some time now. I’ve been worrying about the new changes in my life and thinking about their uncertainty makes me feel frustrated, sad and restless. I don’t know what good is waiting for me at this career change I’m in right now. I feel so unsure whether I have made the right choice or not. Failing would be a terrible shame. Shame because a lot is expected from me. I guess being so good has its down side. When a lot is expected from you, you feel pressured in making decisions. At this point of my life right now I can’t afford to fail. I’m not getting any younger and my time limit is near. I guess this is my last chance to make things right and to make things out of myself.
I can’t help but feel sad about this whole situation. I feel like I have no one to turn to and no one to talk to. There’s no one to assure me that things will be ok. If only I can fore tell the future and see which decisions will bring good results. But I guess life doesn’t happen that way. I need to skim through life blind and in darkness. I guess I will only have laughter to tell me whether I was right, or tears to tell me that I was wrong.
I really don’t know what to do right now. These emotions just won’t settle down. I’m scared, I’m sad, I’m… I really don’t know anymore.
